Today has been one of those "blah" days. I don't know what it is, but over the past day or so I've just been sinking into this weird melancholy state. I don't know if its depression or loneliness or just plain old irrational stupidity, but whatever it is I really need to snap out of it. I've just been feeling so lazy this weekend; I know I should be productive and get things done but all I really want to do is curl up in bed and sleep the time away. I wish this year would end already, I’m totally sick of it. Next year holds so much promise—more promise than any previous year has ever held. I really hope things work out but I can’t help but feel this horrible gnawing sensation in the pit of my stomach. I worry that everything is going to come crashing down like a house of cards; and it tears me apart.
posted at 23:15