Scott S. Topiol

Another year is over. Tonight the media will spend the evening recapping the events of the past year, and people will celebrate in anticipation of what lies ahead. As the prospect of war looms over us, and the country spirals deeper into debt, the new year brings with it many worries; but withing the uncertainty there lies hope. I, for one, look forward to the new year and am hopeful that good things are afoot. For the first time I can remember, I regret the end of the year but embrace it. For me, 2003 is already full of promise and new beginnings. A major career move is underway, a physical move is just around the corner, and after over a year and a half of separation, I will soon finally get to see my special someone. :)

Despite the fact that the world is going to hell in a handbasket, you can always find something to hold on to if you try hard enough. Even in the darkest of times there hope can be found. Make 2003 what you want it to be, and don't let anyone or anything stand in your way. In a world full of uncertainty, all one can do is focus on what they can definitively control--themselves. Happy New Year and may there be enough good in your lives to counter the bad. Catch ya next year...

posted at 18:28

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Mmm....pie!

posted at 14:52

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I don't know what it is about the holidays but I always seem to get all "blah" this time of year. I think it has something to do with the fact that while the holidays mean "family" for most people, for mine it's just anticlimactic. This year I fell into a really bad depressed mood for a few days and I fear I ended up hurting people around me when I never meant to. I don't like how I acted but it's weird because now that the holidays are over it's like a switch was flipped and I feel fine again. I don't know what it is, though I do know it seems to be a common thing among Americans (at least that's what I've read). I'm determined not to let this happen again though, I don't like it and nobody else does. Self-pity (especially when it's really not rooted in anything realistic) is completely pointless and I'm definitely going to learn from this mistake. Happy holidays everyone. May the new year bring much joy to all your lives. :)

posted at 20:45

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Installment II of my Untitled fictional work is now online! Click here to read it.

If you haven't already done so, or if it's been a while, please read Installment I first by clicking here.

Comments directed to scott@webinteractive.net are welcomed.

posted at 16:49

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"Men who seek happiness are like drunkards who can never find their house but are sure that they have one." -Voltaire

posted at 11:57

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Click here to check out Double Deuce's--er, Nicole's new homepage (hosted by yours truly).

posted at 03:34

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Sign my guestbook: it's easy, it's fun, it will make you a better person!

Just a reminder for those of you who haven't yet done so.

posted at 17:20

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Thank God it's Friday. I don't even know what I did this past week, but I'm exhausted nonetheless. Perhaps I'll be able to enjoy the weekend, though I doubt it. So here I am sitting at the office being productive. I would go home except that traffic is so bad that it's not worth it. This city really needs a mass transit system. God I'm restless. It's beautiful out but I just feel so lazy; going to bed at 1:30 and getting up at 5:30 probably didn't help much. Well, back to pretending to work. Yay for the weekend.

posted at 15:35

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I just got home from seeing Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers and I must say: THAT MOVIE ROCKED! The battle scenes are INCREDIBLE! That is how wars shoulg be fought! All I can say is wow! I'm definitely glad that I decided to catch the flick with my Level friends. I highly recommend that you all go out and see this movie right away; you won't be disappointed! Well, I have to work in a few hours so I'm off to bed.

posted at 04:11

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What a beautiful day out! I spent the night at the Level Manor somewhere high atop a hill in the depths of Saugus, CA and I must say, nothing beats being out there right after a rainstorm. The breeze, the clouds, the sky, the landscape; it was beautiful. I feel refreshed.

posted at 15:17

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I love the rain, though I'm not too fond of having to drive in it. Nonetheless, we were hit with our first big storm of the seaon today (after nearly 18 months without any precipitation of note). The weather is definitely a welcome change, although I would have preferred to have been able to enjoy it instead of being cooped up in this office all day. I don't know what it is about rainy days that I like so much; they make me feel content. Winter is by far my favorite season of the year...I guess I'm just a gloomy person; fits me well, I suppose.

I've definitely had too much weighing on my mind these past few days. I need to find some kind of outlet. I haven't been doing nearly as much writing as I used to and I guess I'm starting to feel academically and intellectually starved. I enrolled in EMT classes today and will begin that training in February. I really want to get back into school and although I technically am by doing this, it's still doesn't feel like I'm doing enough. I need to figure out how to finish up my History BA; there is just too much diversity in all the things I want to do with my life for them to allo fit together. Too many conflicts.

In the meantime, I suppose all that I can really do right now is sit back and try and enjoy the rain. Hopefully it will continue to storm throughout the night; nothing is better than curling up in bed and falling asleep to the sound of raindrops falling all around you.

posted at 18:02

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Today has been one of those "blah" days. I don't know what it is, but over the past day or so I've just been sinking into this weird melancholy state. I don't know if its depression or loneliness or just plain old irrational stupidity, but whatever it is I really need to snap out of it. I've just been feeling so lazy this weekend; I know I should be productive and get things done but all I really want to do is curl up in bed and sleep the time away. I wish this year would end already, I’m totally sick of it. Next year holds so much promise—more promise than any previous year has ever held. I really hope things work out but I can’t help but feel this horrible gnawing sensation in the pit of my stomach. I worry that everything is going to come crashing down like a house of cards; and it tears me apart.

posted at 23:15

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I finally managed to get GTA 3 running! I had to get rid of Windows 2000 Advanced Server and installing WindowsXP Professional instead, but now I'm up and running and man is this game addictive!

posted at 22:06

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Damn nVIDIA and Via to hell! A state-of-the-art video card and I can't play GTA 3 for more than 10 minutes at a time without encountering a BSOD that references "nv4_disp.dll". I've tried new drivers, old drivers, and beta drviers to no avail. Even updated the VIA 4-in-1 drivers. No luck. They better release a patch soon!

posted at 10:09

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Wee! I finally have a new computer! Talk about insane techno joy, eh? I am now swish with the following:

2.4ghz AMD XP processor

1.0gb DDR RAM

120gb Serial ATA HDD

128MB nVIDIA Ti 4600 AGP 4x video card

44x24x44 Yamaha CD-RW (w/T@2 technology)

Oh, and did I mention that the entire thing measures 8"x7"x10"?

In other news...

Nicole just bought me the most awesome Kwanza gift; that's right folks, I am now the proud owner of GTA 3 for the PC! (And yes Nicole--you were right--it is addictive!) Speaking of which, I think I'm going to play right now. Wee...............

posted at 23:53

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BUY MY STUFF! ;)

posted at 15:01

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Today is Pearl Harbor Day.

posted at 13:00

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I can identify the sound of a cordless analog phone losing its signal.

posted at 23:57

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Hi, I'm Scott. And I'm pretty freakin cool. Wanna know why? Cause I can identify the sound of a cordless analog phone losing its signal. Know what else? Strong bad is the man, but I'm cooler than him cause I have an LAFD shirt. And he doesnt. ...........ok ok, this isn't Scott. It's Nicole. But he didnt know what to ramble about, and I did, and thats how his brain works anyway, I SWEAR. :-P

posted at 23:23

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Weeeeeeeee! As soon as I find words that can adequately express how I feel right now I'll update this. Until then, all I can say is weeeeeeeeeeee! :)

posted at 12:05

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